Category: Experientia

Reclaiming My Father in Heaven

Tonight I must confess to falling a bit off-track. This is mostly due to worldly concerns, which include but aren’t limited to sparring with buggy software, nonstop work day and night, and something of a financial surprise earlier today when it came time to buy a new Apple computer for my assistant, Elena. In order to remedy my issues, even though my straights were not dire, tonight I set about reclaiming my Father in heaven.

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Truths and Tips for Kingdom Seekers

I’ve acquired many tips for kingdom seekers during the course of six years on the narrow road. Since August of 2011, I’ve been graced to experience a great deal of God’s love, wisdom, and glory. At the same time, my journey has brought me a lion’s share of unease, distress, and dismay. Don’t be put off. It’s all good in the end. Here I share some hard-earned truths and tips as I seek the keys to the kingdom of God.

Tips for Kingdom Seekers #1

Don’t trust what your church, me, or anyone else except Christ says about the kingdom of God.

If those who lead you say to you: Behold, the Sovereignty is in the sky!, then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you: It is in the sea!, then the fish of the sea will precede you … But the Sovereignty of God is within you and it is without you.

Thomas 3 | Luke 17:21

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The Light and the Black Thing

The Light visited my room last night after a three-day absence. The brief sabbatical was a bit curious, but not worrisome. Since I began working devoutly with the principles of Thomas 11, visible clouds of Light manifest almost daily. Last night, after a minute of high-spirited swirling and face-teasing (normal Light behavior) a huge, intimidating Black Thing appeared among the frolicsome clouds of Light.

Our surprise guest was nearly circular, perhaps five feet in diameter. But, my surprise became something more than that when I realized the right half of the Black Thing bore the sardonic profile of a (mostly) human face. ‘Blackie’ sported a chin, mouth, nose and brow.

Beginning at the crown of my head, a bone-chilling shiver penetrated every part of my being as it snowballed downward.

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Evil is a Lie in My Head

Evil is a Lie in my head. Only the Good is real.

“Evil is a lie. Only the Good is real.”

I am the only person I know who believes evil is a lie. Correction. My soul also believes this. In fact it was she who initially informed me. Early on in my journey, shortly after I met my soul, she compared us to a horse and rider. I’m the horse. My job is to carry my Beloved safely home, without fear, to the earthly kingdom prepared for us since the creation of the world.

Her imagery was wonderfully compelling. And utterly terrifying.

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Come Into the Light (Meaning of Thomas 11)

Meaning of Thomas 11 Eludes Scholars

“When you come into the light, what will you do?” riddles Yeshua at Thomas 11. Too little commentary exists for this cryptic logion. When challenged to explore the meaning of Thomas 11, most scholars either dust off an end times analogy or wave the Gnostic flag and retreat. Foul ball. Any good scholar knows that the Gnostics believe creation is corrupt and matter is vile. For them, a human body cannot “come into the light.”

Yes, Thomas 11 is pure Christ. The problem? This passage has no precise corollary in Scripture. It’s also one of the most radical and least understood logia in Thomas, or any of Christ’s teachings. But it isn’t Gnostic, and it’s not about the end of the world. Has no one solved Yeshua’s riddle?

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My Perfect Soul

My Perfect Soul


A blanket of sparkles, my perfect soul
cloud and light and shimmering flawless
above me, alongside and inside of me
she, my companion, my sister-wife
is my Eve, my lover of light.

My perfect soul is everything I see
and everything i am and shall become
although at first, i was hoping to see her
for years each night, hoping to hold her but
this is not the true way, not the real life
God’s ways are different from mine.

A bringer of life is my perfect soul
she is joy and dream and merriment, and
sometimes my blanket of sparkles descends
my companion clothes me in her living light
my Eve, my sister-wife, my true love enters
dressed in white, i can do no wrong for
my bride is the daughter of God.

Signs of a False Prophet

I recently placed myself in a situation where I had to recognize the signs of a false prophet. Through a friend I learned of an inspired spiritual author who, just like me (it was said) believes that a human being may return to Eden. Only one other person I know shares my belief. Since the individual seemed in need of public exposure, I felt this could be an opportunity to feature a like-minded guest writer here at FreelyReceive.

Instead, I fell for one of the classic signs of a false prophet: the bait and switch. During a week of email correspondence, my hoped-for guest author never mentioned Eden. In lieu of writing an insightful article on how to re-enter the living kingdom, she very innocently asked me for something entirely different: an Original sin.

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Journey Into Chaos

My rather unsettling journey into chaos raises an important truth. Those seeking spiritual wisdom need only ask God for help. When I did so, I also asked Father to show me the kingdom of God. I’m fairly sure that I didn’t say “kingdoms,” but that’s what I got. There exists an infinite number of kingdoms. Some are ruled by living beings, some by God, and at least one realm doesn’t seem to have a ruler.

That would be chaos. Imagine yourself cast adrift in a realm where thought does not exist. Whose name will you call on when you can’t remember your own?

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